friendship.

growing up you always have that group of friends . yes the people seem to always change but you belong to a group correction not belong its just that it is your group , your friends , your secrets which all are hold in that bond.

as the years have gone on that group always seemed to change either new school , or people change . its usually people change. but yesterday something happened to me. not really to me but it was happening in front of me and i saw how a friendship could go so sour. to see a friend choose a boy over her suppose to be bestie. you never know what to think when that happens you dont really know how to feel. would you do the same ? or would you choose your best friend ?

things like these questions cross my thoughts ever so often. could you get through life without friendship or would we sit in our rooms and cry. do you ever remember feeling really sad or jealous when one of your old best friends made new friends ? or was it just something that happened ?

see i have many friends not much best friends and even the ones i do call best friends some of them i can not trust. due to the fact they have broke that trust or they havent given me a reason to trust them. see i like to think that i try to make friends with anyone. but whats the point ?
when you know that friends will just disappear in time and new ones will replace them ? if knowing you cant trust half the people you call friends how do you do it ? how do you manage to go around saying this is my friend but i cant trust her ?

cause i guess friendship is something like love.
when it ends your heartbroken ,
you cant really see it ,
but people can show it to you.

and much like love without friendship we would all be depressed people venting on a blog.
much like me at the moment .

but see i have those moments when i see why we have friendship with people.
when we are sitting on the side of the road just talking or when you dont get mad at me for making a mistake knowing i will make many more.

i decided to talk about friendship cause yesterday i found out that a friend can have two sides to them. a side you want to see and a side you never want to witness. guess what side i saw yesterday ?