slow motion see me let go.

hollywood glamorized my wrath

im the young urban psycho path

i incite murder for your entertainment.

closer.

cause people change like seasons.

and cant be trusted because we are constantly changing.

i could chase you for years to come.

but every year you'll be different.

and you'll grow apart from me.

i cant go to bed thinking youre not happy

and i cant wake up every morning imagining i make you upset.

and as much as this hurts me to say,

if you would like me to leave and never come back,

i can walk out of your life as fast as i walked into it.

- im done with this pathetic mood.

find your love.

im more than just an option,

refuse to be forgotten.

i took a chance with my heart,

and i feel it taking over

then nothings gonna tear us apart,

im more than just a number.

i doubt you’ll find another,

so every single summer

i be the one that you remember.

draaaaaake (L)

just saying,

btw, im in a better mood. rugby can do that to me. :$

and at any occasion im ready for a funeral.

how can you love someone so much but by the end of the day they are the ones that make you wanna cry. loved ones are there to break you down and make your life miserable. they are the biggest hypocrites and liars. how can someone love you, but treat you like shit and be there for you when they fell like it. im tired of it. and quite frankly im tired of you.

i understand you are sick, but so am i.

but you dont put up with my illness,

why should i be any different?

baby you wouldn't last a minute on the creek.

ignoring what we've felt,
overlooking what we've done,
no awkward silences, no hiding any truths
ignoring what we've felt,
overlooking what we've done,
what do you say?
this is probably the best,
not to mention the worst idea,
that i have ever had.

- legit best song, for the mood ive been in lately.

im sorry, but i cant do this for much longer.

i cant sit here with you and lie to your face.

i dont want to be here.

i hate everything ive become.

im sorry but i lied about everything.

;)

may 24th weeeeeeekend.

best weekend.

btw. smd.

heartbreaker.

im a heart breaker.

and no doubt in my mind,

im going to break yours.

its just a matter of time.

cause if i wasnt here you would be.

i dont understand how you can a drop a girl so fast
and leave her for another one.
as if she never meant anything to you
like you never stayed awake for her texts at night
or as if you didnt miss her sometime in your life.
i dont understand how you can tell someone you "love" them
and there be no truth behind it at all.
im sitting here trying to place myself in her shoes.
as if i was the one you decided to drop.
i cant talk to her or tell her how i feel.
im the reason why she cant call you at night and say she "misses" you.

or that she just wants to talk.

im sorry.

- wooah. some writing i found in my book.

rugby.

ever wanted to punch a girl so badly, but never had the chance too.

ever wanted to grab a girls shirt and just throw her down to the ground.

OR ever wanted to push a girl down to the ground and step on her.

thats why i play rugby <3

after milton district rugby game.

29-0. !;)

VENTING.

AN ACTUAL VENTING BLOG POST.

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- you ever get those random text from guys when you shouldnt,. or those text messages that can ruin your whole entire night.?
everyone needs to stop being so pathetic when it comes to others lives. anything i say about someone, i make sure that i can say it to their faces. so dont talk about me. you dont know me to even mention my name. im sorry if you dont like me but that doesnt give you a reason to run your mouth. kay, thanks.


- some people really know how to fuck up your trust issues.

yee.

sorry that im what he wants and youre not.

dreams of getting out of this town.
and talks about leaving what she once knew as home.
but what holds her back is her heart.
knowing that she can leave the city but she will always be what she is.
a dreamer.
flowers cant wish away your problems.

lyrics ?

i hope you know you are not alone.

... because i love this photo. my friend got it off some random blog and sent it to me. (:
i really like it.

... and this is what i feel about love.

hurt from insensitive behaviour
you're scared of what this really is.
and where this might lead us next
.. it grabbed us by the throat
.. it grabbed us by the throat and we contuine to breathe.
its how i feel about love.
that its not worth it.

lyrics.

hahaa :$

no need to look anymore,
ive found what im looking for.
and some day i will regret my actions and words,
but i know i wont regret the nights i spent with you.
so here i am and there you are.
and i couldnt be any happier.

- for my book?

you lose something in return to gain something.

the innocent and the beautiful have no enemy but time.

- william butler yeats.

and ive never seen a guy like you before.

and he promises he'll try his hardest and give it his all,
to make me the happiest and never hurt me.
and he believes i deserve the best.
hes been caught up in a world that wont treat him right.
but he wants a second chance in life.
doesnt want me to change " just be youself " he says.
and im scared that i cant make him the happiest.
that im living up to something i cant be.

im leaving because i can never stay in one place.
i need to be moving to make sure i can feel something.
people tell me to slow down,
pause myself, and live in the moment.
but what they dont see is life right now couldnt be any slower.