olympics.

IM CANADIAN.
and we just won gold in hockey.
YEEEEEEEEEEEES! (:
CROSBY ( L )
- i have goosebumps. that game was amazing.
olympics 2010.
the year of the canadians.

oh hey, your cute.

i forgot what is was like to actually have fun with someone.
and not over think everything about every little detail.
of course by the end of the night things have to end.
and you say your goodbyes and not see them for months.
you promise you'll keep in touch and you recieve one last kiss.
yet you feel like shit cause you think about,
what if i told them i didnt want that.
but you know in your heart all you two will ever have is friendship.
and honestly, your okay with that fact.

-cassiefaria.

coffee. (:

dear coffee.
you are my lovely friend.
you make me want to get up and dance around my room.
you control my thoughts.
thank you. <3

demon.

i have this demon that i always told to go away.
yet i want to embrace it with all i got.
welcome it back into my life.
this demon is really an angel to save me from myself.
so show me what you got, im vulnerable at most.


- cassiefaria.

reesescup.

and we can only hope for a better day.
cause hope is the only thing we got.

te amo.

te amo.

feelings for you again i thought i left behind.
feelings that i thought could never could come back,
locked away in a tight seal and doesnt brake.
but why are the feelings flooding under pressure.

you and i ?

jones, emily jones.

emily jones.
your amazing.
enough said.

there for you always. whenever you need someone. im here for you.
i love you.

whenever you are sad, mad, or just need some cheering up.
read this.

iloveyou. <3

ericachang.

erica chang and her blog is pretty amazing.
tigerwhimsical.blogspot.com
read it. ^

i thought i would do a tribute to her.
by doing 10 instead of 50 random things about myself.
here goes.

1. if i could i would lock myself in a library and never let anyone in. i would not visit the outside world and the only world i would live in would be my books. many might say im a nerd i like to think of it as living a new life from fictional characters. sad really.


2. once i fall i fall hard. im not a girl to move from guys to guys. i like one certain person. and if it doesnt work out between me and him then i cry for hours. hopeless romantic i guess.


3. i suffer from severe depression and OCD(obsessive complusive disorder) < gooogle it. most people dont understand because to them i look normal. what a stupid reply. of course i look normal its not a physical disorder but a mental. im crazy.


4. i dream of him for hours. he consumes my thoughts. my secret life is a fairytale where i wish it could just be me and him. but according to him that can never happen. im stupid to him.


5. im unstable.


6. i have a cat. shes fat. she sleeps on a mat. and occasinaly wears a hat ?
i tried. im not very poetic or goood with words.


7. im writing a book. i guess that doesnt make sense after reading #6 ?


8. without my ipod or music generally i would probably die in a hole. music is probably the biggest part of my life.

9. second biggest part of my life food. -_-


10. i have this book that has my deepest darkest thoughts. if anyone were to read it i would probably die.


cassondrafaira.
sad
hopeless romantic
crazy
stupid
unstable
not poetic
writing
music
food
secrets



more to come ?

its time now.

its time now.
let everything go and pick it up in order.
ripe away all the shit and then tape it back together.
so its time to let all my mistakes go and make no more.
cause its time now and i dont think i can take this any longer.

- cassondrafaria.

today.

* sigh.

today is one of those days when you want nothing to do with people and the people you want to deal with are not in sight. today is one of those days when you think all of your friends have abandon you and the ones that want to see you are to far. today is one of those days that i regret moving. i miss my friends, the buses, the convince of everything. i mean yea i dont mind living here right now but i mean everything here is just so blah. i want to live my life. have fun. party, make plans, and break plans. i want my old life back. im selfish i know. but like i said today is one of those days.

up/

up
upup
upupup
upupupup
upupupupup
upupupupupup
upupupupupupup
upupupupupupupup.

i'll make it just watch me.

content.

this is the first time in a long while since i can finally say im content with everything around me. just flowing into place. but is it true that theres always a calm before the storm ?

why ?

am i cursed ?
or is the world just out to get me ?

* to put judgment on someone else is to only put judgment on yourself.

-cassiefaria.